Confused...

Man, I feel like I have so much on my mind, but I don't know how to say it...or what to say. I guess lately I've been thinking a whole lot about my future. The future is so uncertain. Things change so much everyday, and in ways that you sometimes wouldn't ever expect. Even the things in your life that you think will always be constant sometimes dissolve or change. That's why I've been thinking about the future a lot lately. I'm really curious, sometimes even scared, to know how my life is going to play out. Lately, I've been thinking through things so much and analyzing everything. I've been trying to figure everything out on my own because I thought if I reasoned everything out perfectly and played it out well, everything in my life would work out well. I realized today I can't do that anymore. It just leaves me scared that I am going to mess something up and uptight about everything. It makes me even more sensitive toward stupid situations than usual because I analyze what everything means and I sometimes assume the worst. Sometimes, or actually a lot of times, God has to get me to this point where I feel pretty overwhelmed and confused before he shows me his solution. I guess that's because sometimes I don't realize how stupid my plan is and how perfect his is until I realize I can't do it my way. Today, he showed me that I can't know what my future holds, and I can't make every decision perfectly. But he does know my future and he is perfect. So, all I really need to do is live life and surrender everything to him. He will take care of the rest. Instead of trying to choose the right path to go down, he will bring the right path to me. I can't do it on my own, but I'm so thankful that I have a God that will guide me.