I'm Weird

It's been a good night. Every Tuesday night at my church there's a college ministry event called Sand, Psalms, and Sonic. Basically we start playing sand volleyball at 6:30 and play until it gets dark. Then we have a little 15-minute devotion out next to the sand volleyball courts on the grass, and then after that we all go to Sonic and get slushes or something to eat, or whatever you want at Sonic haha. It's a really cool thing. I always look forward to it. Anyway, I've had the opportunity lately to reach out to a guy who just graduated from high school and moved down here from St. Louis and doesn't know anybody. My parents met his parents and they told me about their son, Robbie, and told me I should give him a call. So I invited him to church a couple weeks ago and he's been going with me every Sunday and tonight I got the opportunity to take him with me to Sand, Psalms, and Sonic. Anyway, what this is all building up to is that it's just been a really rewarding experience and a blessing to do this. Last summer, I was in the exact same position as him. I had just graduated from high school, moved to an unfamiliar place where I knew nobody and just wanted some friends. Luckily, this summer, God has really allowed me to meet a lot of cool new people at my church, which has been great. But, it's so cool how God uses people and uses experiences that we go through to reach out to others. I asked him on our way home tonight how he liked Sand, Psalms, and Sonic and he just seemed to really have enjoyed it a lot. He said it was his first time all summer to actually do something normal and socialize with people his age. It was so great to hear him say that, and to know he got something he needed, because I know exactly how that feels, and I know there's so many people that need that too. It was just cool that God used me for something like that.

I was talking to Robbie, the guy mentioned above, about Texas compared to Missouri, where he's from. One thing he did mention is that Texans have a lot of pride in their state, and he seemed to admire that. Well...Texas is the bomb diggity. So, darn right we have pride in our state!!

Yeah, so the title of this post is "I'm Weird", which so far hasn't really made sense because I haven't said anything about how I'm weird. But...you just wait. I'm getting there. I was just thinking about myself before I started writing and I just think I'm weird. Sure, most people are weird. But, I feel like I'm really weird. Maybe it's just because I'm myself and everyone's harder on themselves. I just wonder if other people have the same kinds of feelings as me and have tendencies on the same "weirdness" level as me. Like...why the heck do I get feeling so lonely so easily? All I have to do is listen to a song that kinda means something to me, something I can really sing with with my heart, and all of a sudden I'm lonely. It's like...I just want someone to share that with. I know I have God with me all the time, and I'm never alone. I really do know that. But, I still get that feeling where I want to share things that mean a lot to me with a person. I have it imprinted in my brain that I shouldn't have to share these things with people; that God is all that I need. But, it just seems that I get that feeling at times regardless. Sure, loneliness is not an uncommon thing. But, I dunno, I just feel weird. There's a lot of other things that make me feel like I'm weirder than most people, but I could go on forever explaining them. I mean, you see how long it took me to explain the first one. Well, actually, I can explain this one quickly: I react to a lot of things emotionally, and end up saying stupid and sometimes hurtful things. And a lot of times the things I say to people when I react like this don't really make sense to them, and they end up confused. But then sometimes people realize that I'm just reacting weird to something. Oh, and I think too much about everything. Haha...this paragraph is weird. See, I told you! Anyway, I'm done talking about that. I guess you can judge yourself whether I'm really weird or not. But, whoever I am, it's okay, because in God's eyes I am awesome and am "fearfully and wonderfully made".

I hate how my room is either too hot or too cold. I wish I could just feel content with the temperature.

I miss Katie Hill. I wish she'd get back from France already so that we could have some interesting middle-of-the-night conversations.

I'm tired, I think I'm gonna go to bed. I got a long day of driving golf carts tomorrow (I work at El Dorado Country Club and I'm on cart staff). But in all honesty, that job is pretty hard work at times. We do a lot of stuff other than just parking carts and cleaning them and all that. Really, we keep that place running.

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